A letter from Elina to her son.

 

On September 15th 2002 I started a journal, I wrote to my Baby; “When I first found out I was pregnant with you it was so hard, I’m only 15, Iam only in 10th grade!! Iam happy Iam pregnant with you, I love you so much and yet haven’t even met you. Its crazy how I feel. Some have been saying I ruined my life. I say everything happens for a reason, you are my reason! YOU are going to make my life better! I wonder who you will look like!!! Iam gonna be the best MOTHER to you, give you a good life, you will be able to talk to me about EVERYTHING, I love you”

Here we are, 18 years later on Graduation Day::

Son,  I hope I’ve given you a good life, and been the best mother to you, and you and I both know you can talk to me about every and anything, You did in fact make my life better, still my REASON,  you look like me,  and everything does happen for a reason. Also its still crazy how I feel, that has never gone away.  Yeah it was hard finding out about you, but I remember the day like it were yesterday, this unexplainable feeling rushing through my body and piercing through my heart,  when I knew you were meant to be mine and the universe knew I was supposed to be your Mother, there after it was Madonna “IM KEEPING MY BABY’ lol

You can say we ‘grew up’ together, just the two of us, you watched me finished high school, and I watched you grow into this amazing person.

 I remember dropping you off at your first day of school, and crying in the parking lot, I remember when you lost your first tooth, and I had to be the tooth fairy for the first time, when you found your teeth in my nightstand, the confusion on your face lol. To all the sporting events, I loved watching you play T-ball, you would throw you mitten in the air, and count the birds as they flew over the field, lol it was the funniest. Watching you fall in love, with basketball. You still love the game! You didn’t let kids bully other kids, you loved a good nerf gun fight to now we air box in the kitchen! Your dancing skills, how you would entertain everyone with those sweet moves.  Moving us to Austin, and we only had each other in this city, it’s been 10 years now, here in Austin, and it was the best decision I made for us, we planted a life here, and now in the blink of an eye, boom you are 18, graduating, Nate you are like the best person I ever met, you are smart, and kind, so compassionate, and brave. You wear your heart where everyone can see it, you stand up for what’s right.  Not to mention you are so Handsome!

 YOU DID IT, WE DID IT! TOGETHER!

Well, Pumpkin this is all too bittersweet! What a wild year, we’ve had, I didn’t think our bond could get any stronger; but it did.  You know I will forever and always be here for you, Mamma will forever have your back, just like you have mine!

Congratulations on this huge milestone in your life, I’m excited and ready for what life brings you next.

I LOVE YOU, Mom